Talking about life with Joel.

So Joel picked me up after work today (I quit the factory job, called Dollar General and Subway while I was there. I am so sore right now, it sucks. I can't work 11 hour fucking days hunched over the line.) and we went to Dennys. I got 169 dollars or so left over (I think I'm still waiting on that Amazon return) so when that comes back I'll probably just give Linda 200 bucks and say that's all I got for rent, take it or leave it cause it leaves me with 9 dollars.




Aaaand as soon as I started writing this, I just had a 3 hour discussion with Joel about him and his gf and their relationship. I wish I had more experience with relationships because I’m literally grasping at straws here lol. I hope I helped him a little bit at least. I wish I knew why he thinks I’m a good source of help because I am really not, IMO. But I guess he doesn't really have anyone else to go to being in a 'position of power' in his company, leaves him with no one to really talk to. I did try to help him to the best of my ability though, but yeah his girlfriend is definitely a blank slate. Good looking, but definitely 'trophy girlfriend' material, not anything with "substance" as he told me.




Off to play Ghost of Tsushima I guess or something.

New job.

Well, I worked at Dollar General for a week, and then immediately picked up a new job at a factory down the street. Holy hell it's easy work lol. Today all I did was move bread from trays to tables. Loaves of bread. ezpzlemonsqueezy. Tomorrow I'll probably be assigned a different station? Who knows. I should actually be asleep right now, otherwise I'm only getting like 5 hours of sleep or less. I took the sleeping pills too late, ugh. And I'm still not tired, but I'm forcing myself to go to sleep.

I sold my macbook to my brother for 300 dollars and I'm already almost out of money :( 3 hundo sure goes fast. I have some left though for food, but I should get paid from DG this week so hopefully I have enough for rent. If not I'll have to ask Joel to help me out and I don't think he's really willing to do that (but he should be since the going price for that macbook was literally 1k to 1.2k dollars on ebay...) but we'll see.

He also traded me his Chromebook for it as well which I am writing this on right now. Man I don't want any hard jobs at the factory, I just want to do bread all day every day. I was literally made for that shit. I'm getting paid 11.30 an hour there and today I got sent home early cause one of the lines broke down (seniority gets to stay over new people). So I'll probably be getting sent home a lot this week? Dunno.

I guess I should try and get some sleep. Maybe I'll just say fuck it and stay up though. SPUR OF THE MOMENT ACTION!

weird dream.

So today when I was sleeping I had an odd dream. Post-apoc maybe? Er, apoc anyway.

I dreamt that I guess all of a sudden people started turning just… into werewolves. For some people, the change took time, for others, it was almost instantaneous.

My dream was in a random house (not the one I’m in right now, a lot nicer actually lol) and it was just me and a bunch of other people. No one I knew, just me. Normally this would cause me to have a little anxiety but right then, I didn’t care, I just wanted to be safe. So I went into this house and after people stopped filtering in, I shut the door.

I don’t remember much after that except for the fact that my little brother came into the dream at some point and also the 60/yo landlord living here currently did as well to talk about a tank I bought? Too much War Thunder lol.

Anyway at some point in the dream I was at the back door maybe a few hours after the initial “changing” in people, so anyone who was gonna change would have been changed by then, and I was letting people in and stuff. Basically telling them “you can’t stay here but you can rest” since we were basically jam packed with people and tensions were high. For some reason during that point in the dream I was deathly focused on getting a nail to lock the screen door hinge so werewolves couldn’t break in. Maybe just stress getting to me at the time or something in the dream. Always feels good to work with your hands when you’re stressed, even if it’s something like that. To have a small goal, to feel in-control, etc.

For some reason I remember another scene where some kids were being loaded onto a bus from the house and I just remember another kid looking at me and waving from the bus, and I waved to him and smiled, and then the bus took off super fast.

That was it, I think. I don’t like werewolf movies or paraphernalia, I don’t like any of that stuff related to werewolves. I’m not sure what the f caused me to dream about that. Maybe me crying last night after reading a reddit post and replying to it that I wish my dad would tell me he’s proud of me even though I’ve done nothing to be proud of except graduate high school? I’m not sure how that connects to the dream though, and it may not, but I dunno. The human mind is an enigma wrapped in a mystery. Mmmm… wraps.