Email to Grandma.

Merry Xmas.

It's cool about the gift, I appreciate it. I'll let you know when it gets here. Good, you guys got snow haha. We just got rain and mud... fun to walk to work in, haha.

Where is Drake staying now by chance? Just curious. Yeah, I'm not going to have enough money to come visit anyone ever so, oh well. Hope you all had an enjoyable Christmas though. I went to my mom's for Xmas dinner and then came home.

Nah, factory job didn't happen and isn't going to happen. I'm just working at Circle K now. I like Circle K so it's whatever. That and minimum wage is going up to ten dollars on the first so. And I'm getting a raise of 0.75 cents on top of that so I'll be making 10.75.I asked for a dollar raise and my manager just looked at me like "are you kidding me lol" so. Can't blame me for trying, haha.

Incoming book:

Kindness doesn't win anybody over or get me who I want, exercise and being physically fit does, and I'm too lazy for that crap and love food too much, so that ain't happening.

Don't talk about that stuff when the nicest guys on the planet get strapped down with whores(sorry if that counts as a bad word but getting my point across here) who have 5 kids and have to support a drug addict wife or some crap, which is where I'm going to end up if I wanted to love. And at this point, I really don't with all these crazy women going around screaming rape if a guy pokes them on the shoulder.

I'd rather not deal with women ever again, since I already passed up the one that was perfect for me due to me being jealous over some other idiot's relationship, instead of appreciating I have someone to actually come home to. Now I get to just come home to a roommate who I have to buy food for and pay bills for, instead of supporting someone that I love. And I still love her and tell her that every day no matter what but it's a fruitless endeavor.

 Better than supporting a druggie with 5 kids? Yeah, but still not my ideal of course, but whatever at this point. At least I get one paycheck a month to myself now to spend on whatever I want.

I asked Haley this morning after I got back from working overnight if she wanted to get back together, which would be the last time I ask her, and she said no. So we're just going to be roommates. I supported her this whole year (paying rent, bills, food, etc) for her and got nothing for it so she is starting to pay half of rent now and starting next year (in a few days) half of at least the internet bill. She still doesn't have a job and I can't get her a job so. She's just pulling money from Amazon Mechanical Turk still so.

She did say she eventually wants to move out, probably to an apartment in this complex but if it comes down to it and my mom is still alive at that point I'd probably move back in with her for reduced rent and stuff and she can just have the apartment. -shrug- Just take my stuff and she can keep the bookshelves and all the crap I can't take, so.

She doesn't appreciate ME, she appreciates the fact that I keep her internet and electricity and foodstuffs coming in. I don't know how to be an asshole(sorry) and I'm not capable of being one which is apparently what women want from men according to a couple women from work, so I guess I'd rather at least be a supportive doormat. That's more in line with "me" than being mean, but I'd rather be single instead of supporting someone with children and potential drug addictions around here.

She just plays World of Warcraft all day to "escape from reality" she tells me but that leads to no chores being done while I'm at work or anything so I have to do them. She's been kind of keeping up on them so whatever I guess. I'm pretty sure in the near future (in the next 6 months or so) she's probably going to get interested in someone on WoW so I'll have to deal with that, unfortunately. -shrug- At this point, I feel like I've been ripped into tiny shreds so there's no possible way I can feel anything about that at this point.

I even got her a new smartphone (with no service, just using Wifi) to communicate with her as well. It's good for her though since now she can text her mom and her brother I guess so, eh. The smartphone was free but it took a lot to get it.

Just a shredded old supportive doormat.

End book.

So yeah worked overnight last night at work, working overnight tonight and then I got a day and a half off (cause I sleep into one of my days off unfortunately so a day and a half off). Overnights are really ruining my sleep schedule and I keep asking to be moved off of them but my manager isn't hiring anybody or anything so I'm stuck. I do enjoy getting a whole day to do stuff and then just going into work at night, though, so it's 50/50 in my book I guess.