https://www.reddit.com/r/Divorce/comments/5s6yq5/narcissistic_stbxw_consumed_with_hate_spite/
Sunday, February 5, 2017
Whoo
Probably going to write in my journal as well but
1. Got a VPN for 1 month
2. Got dominos
3. Got S.H.I.E.L.D. Episodes to watch
4. Got 2 days off
WHOOWHEE. I've never been so excited to chill and relax in one night. I just finished eating pizza so not sure what I'm gonna do now but I still have some pizza for later. Oh yeah
5. Got Dunkin Donuts Iced Coffee from work
Uhghbsdfhjsd dude this iced coffee is the BEST and it's less expensive than starbucks iced coffee. I've bought 4 of em this week (I really shouldn't but honestly I don't know what it is about them but they caffiene carry me through the damn day at work). They cost $3.19 but starbucks ones cost $3.50 so... yep.
I'm probably going to buy a lot of them after my next paycheck cause I'm gonna have a lot of spare money.
Also trying to decide if I want to blow my tax money on something cool or not. I'd rather use the money to make more money but I don't think I could do much with 1.4k dollars to make more money around here besides flipping drugs or something, shit.
I dunno. Anyway I guess I'm off to play something. I don't know what but something. Watching Wanderbot (http://www.twitch.tv/wanderbot) play the new Digimon game right now so... yep.
Also I guess Haley is done talking to me. Lisa at work and the general commentary I got from other people was right, she just up and dropped me like a hot potato. /shrug No skin off my bones I guess. Honestly I don't really want to associate with a woman that doesn't value sex as a way to get closer and only wants to ride the cock carousel as MGTOW puts it. I'm not really into casual sex as much as I might radiate it on the subreddit for MGTOW. I can understand why people do it but please, leave me out of it. Sex is something to do with someone you love and someone who will stand beside you always. Not something to be casually tossed around.
I look down on people who have casual sex, fuckbuddies, friends with benefits, etc. I'd rather fap than get an escort or have a fuckbuddy or something.
Honestly I never saw Haley that way but I was too much "not a man" to ask for sex when I actually wanted to early in the relationship. And we were together so it didn't matter, it wasn't casual sex, it was exclusive to us. But I didn't know that Haley didn't have my same values for sex. I mean... I thought I did. I'm 99% sure I asked her and she stated the same thing, that it should be between two people who love each other and it should be special. But after what happened it just shows me that she never thought that way. No one who has values like what I mentioned would just up and abandon them like that. Which I guess shows in how she was brought up since her mom drank a lot and had multiple boyfriends from what I was told, not at one time, but yeah. So I dunno.
I also feel like Haley is going to go the way of the drinker too, especially if she finds something she likes to drink like the Apple Crown Royal I had that she downed more than half a fucking bottle of. Pisses me off more than anything, that, cause that shit's expensive. I don't believe in alcoholism being uh... hereditary but she seems the type to lean toward it IMO. Plus she's a super lightweight so.
It's funny thinking about women drinking and guys doing women at once (like, group sex) at parties and stuff because alcohol seems to REALLY let a woman let her vagina be fucking loose as fuck and they just fuck whoever and suck whoever. I finally understand why there are so many stories of "OH MY GF FUCKED THESE TEN GUYS AT THIS PARTY BOOHOO". Women are SUPER fucking lightweights unless they've been drinking for years, or are possibly really fat. I just imagine women being literally persuaded by dudes that their dick is a lollipop. I have not met one woman that can maintain actual logical thought like a man can while they're drunk. Fuck, I extremely RARELY drink and I maintain logical thought the entire time I drink even while I'm drunk. I may be more vulnerable to emotions in general but I know right from wrong. But women do not. They do not at all.
I kind of got off topic sort of I guess but that's what this blog is for, just... writing shit.
I dunno I guess it's going to take me a while to get over the shock that she wasn't who I thought she was.
That and I love being a MGHOW. (Man Going His Own Way vs Men Going Their Own Way, just usage change). Fuck women.
I've taken to throwing up MGTOW messages on my twitter with stuff from the MGTOW subreddit with the tagline "Don't Marry. Don't Cohabitate. #MGTOW". I've actually gained like 5 followers from this lol. It's interesting to say the least.
Anyway off to do some crap I guess.
1. Got a VPN for 1 month
2. Got dominos
3. Got S.H.I.E.L.D. Episodes to watch
4. Got 2 days off
WHOOWHEE. I've never been so excited to chill and relax in one night. I just finished eating pizza so not sure what I'm gonna do now but I still have some pizza for later. Oh yeah
5. Got Dunkin Donuts Iced Coffee from work
Uhghbsdfhjsd dude this iced coffee is the BEST and it's less expensive than starbucks iced coffee. I've bought 4 of em this week (I really shouldn't but honestly I don't know what it is about them but they caffiene carry me through the damn day at work). They cost $3.19 but starbucks ones cost $3.50 so... yep.
I'm probably going to buy a lot of them after my next paycheck cause I'm gonna have a lot of spare money.
Also trying to decide if I want to blow my tax money on something cool or not. I'd rather use the money to make more money but I don't think I could do much with 1.4k dollars to make more money around here besides flipping drugs or something, shit.
I dunno. Anyway I guess I'm off to play something. I don't know what but something. Watching Wanderbot (http://www.twitch.tv/wanderbot) play the new Digimon game right now so... yep.
Also I guess Haley is done talking to me. Lisa at work and the general commentary I got from other people was right, she just up and dropped me like a hot potato. /shrug No skin off my bones I guess. Honestly I don't really want to associate with a woman that doesn't value sex as a way to get closer and only wants to ride the cock carousel as MGTOW puts it. I'm not really into casual sex as much as I might radiate it on the subreddit for MGTOW. I can understand why people do it but please, leave me out of it. Sex is something to do with someone you love and someone who will stand beside you always. Not something to be casually tossed around.
I look down on people who have casual sex, fuckbuddies, friends with benefits, etc. I'd rather fap than get an escort or have a fuckbuddy or something.
Honestly I never saw Haley that way but I was too much "not a man" to ask for sex when I actually wanted to early in the relationship. And we were together so it didn't matter, it wasn't casual sex, it was exclusive to us. But I didn't know that Haley didn't have my same values for sex. I mean... I thought I did. I'm 99% sure I asked her and she stated the same thing, that it should be between two people who love each other and it should be special. But after what happened it just shows me that she never thought that way. No one who has values like what I mentioned would just up and abandon them like that. Which I guess shows in how she was brought up since her mom drank a lot and had multiple boyfriends from what I was told, not at one time, but yeah. So I dunno.
I also feel like Haley is going to go the way of the drinker too, especially if she finds something she likes to drink like the Apple Crown Royal I had that she downed more than half a fucking bottle of. Pisses me off more than anything, that, cause that shit's expensive. I don't believe in alcoholism being uh... hereditary but she seems the type to lean toward it IMO. Plus she's a super lightweight so.
It's funny thinking about women drinking and guys doing women at once (like, group sex) at parties and stuff because alcohol seems to REALLY let a woman let her vagina be fucking loose as fuck and they just fuck whoever and suck whoever. I finally understand why there are so many stories of "OH MY GF FUCKED THESE TEN GUYS AT THIS PARTY BOOHOO". Women are SUPER fucking lightweights unless they've been drinking for years, or are possibly really fat. I just imagine women being literally persuaded by dudes that their dick is a lollipop. I have not met one woman that can maintain actual logical thought like a man can while they're drunk. Fuck, I extremely RARELY drink and I maintain logical thought the entire time I drink even while I'm drunk. I may be more vulnerable to emotions in general but I know right from wrong. But women do not. They do not at all.
I kind of got off topic sort of I guess but that's what this blog is for, just... writing shit.
I dunno I guess it's going to take me a while to get over the shock that she wasn't who I thought she was.
That and I love being a MGHOW. (Man Going His Own Way vs Men Going Their Own Way, just usage change). Fuck women.
I've taken to throwing up MGTOW messages on my twitter with stuff from the MGTOW subreddit with the tagline "Don't Marry. Don't Cohabitate. #MGTOW". I've actually gained like 5 followers from this lol. It's interesting to say the least.
Anyway off to do some crap I guess.
Saturday, February 4, 2017
MGTOW Selfishness
Being selfish has such a negative connotation these days. Everyone sees selfishness as a negative thing. But no man will ever come along and find "Ms. Right" because there is no such thing.
It needs to be explained to the baby boomer generation and the generations before them too that are still alive that at this point, it is much better to be without a woman than it is to be with one, for any number of reasons nowadays. The points would obviously be hard to get across to them, but it needs to be done.
It's like when I told my grandmother my now-ex and I broke up. "Oh, she doesn't know what she's missing out on" "you're a nice guy" "You'll find someone else who likes you" etc etc. I wasn't even asking for input about this, I was just INFORMING her that this happened. I literally had to tell her off in one email to just STOP because I was not going to be looking for anyone else. She got the message after I had asked her not to talk about it, repeatedly, but I guess any age women don't listen to guys who actually know what they want.
I'd rather keep all my money to myself than support a cunt that's going to eventually quit her job and make me take care of all her needs while she does literally nothing but play vidya all day or watch tv. Fuuuuuck that.
I'll fuck a cunt but I ain't supportin' a bitch.
Friday, February 3, 2017
Reddit MGTOW
I remember reading my ex's journal and we were having sex issues (never recovered btw but like I give a rat's ass now). I remember she started reading that and felt pity for them only getting some action like twice a month or something and then we started never having sex and a few months later she was jealous of people getting it twice a month.
Then I actually started wanting sex and she was playing World of Warcraft and that was the end of it.
https://www.reddit.com/r/MGTOW/comments/5rs283/why_is_my_dad_encouraging_me_to_find_a_girl/
mention of /r/deadbedrooms
Then I actually started wanting sex and she was playing World of Warcraft and that was the end of it.
https://www.reddit.com/r/MGTOW/comments/5rs283/why_is_my_dad_encouraging_me_to_find_a_girl/
mention of /r/deadbedrooms
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