Whoo

Probably going to write in my journal as well but

1. Got a VPN for 1 month

2. Got dominos

3. Got S.H.I.E.L.D. Episodes to watch

4. Got 2 days off

WHOOWHEE. I've never been so excited to chill and relax in one night. I just finished eating pizza so not sure what I'm gonna do now but I still have some pizza for later. Oh yeah

5. Got Dunkin Donuts Iced Coffee from work

Uhghbsdfhjsd dude this iced coffee is the BEST and it's less expensive than starbucks iced coffee. I've bought 4 of em this week (I really shouldn't but honestly I don't know what it is about them but they caffiene carry me through the damn day at work). They cost $3.19 but starbucks ones cost $3.50 so... yep.

I'm probably going to buy a lot of them after my next paycheck cause I'm gonna have a lot of spare money.

Also trying to decide if I want to blow my tax money on something cool or not. I'd rather use the money to make more money but I don't think I could do much with 1.4k dollars to make more money around here besides flipping drugs or something, shit.

I dunno. Anyway I guess I'm off to play something. I don't know what but something. Watching Wanderbot (http://www.twitch.tv/wanderbot) play the new Digimon game right now so... yep.

Also I guess Haley is done talking to me. Lisa at work and the general commentary I got from other people was right, she just up and dropped me like a hot potato. /shrug No skin off my bones I guess. Honestly I don't really want to associate with a woman that doesn't value sex as a way to get closer and only wants to ride the cock carousel as MGTOW puts it. I'm not really into casual sex as much as I might radiate it on the subreddit for MGTOW. I can understand why people do it but please, leave me out of it. Sex is something to do with someone you love and someone who will stand beside you always. Not something to be casually tossed around.

I look down on people who have casual sex, fuckbuddies, friends with benefits, etc. I'd rather fap than get an escort or have a fuckbuddy or something.

Honestly I never saw Haley that way but I was too much "not a man" to ask for sex when I actually wanted to early in the relationship. And we were together so it didn't matter, it wasn't casual sex, it was exclusive to us. But I didn't know that Haley didn't have my same values for sex. I mean... I thought I did. I'm 99% sure I asked her and she stated the same thing, that it should be between two people who love each other and it should be special. But after what happened it just shows me that she never thought that way. No one who has values like what I mentioned would just up and abandon them like that. Which I guess shows in how she was brought up since her mom drank a lot and had multiple boyfriends from what I was told, not at one time, but yeah. So I dunno.

I also feel like Haley is going to go the way of the drinker too, especially if she finds something she likes to drink like the Apple Crown Royal I had that she downed more than half a fucking bottle of. Pisses me off more than anything, that, cause that shit's expensive. I don't believe in alcoholism being uh... hereditary but she seems the type to lean toward it IMO. Plus she's a super lightweight so.

It's funny thinking about women drinking and guys doing women at once (like, group sex) at parties and stuff because alcohol seems to REALLY let a woman let her vagina be fucking loose as fuck and they just fuck whoever and suck whoever. I finally understand why there are so many stories of "OH MY GF FUCKED THESE TEN GUYS AT THIS PARTY BOOHOO". Women are SUPER fucking lightweights unless they've been drinking for years, or are possibly really fat.  I just imagine women being literally persuaded by dudes that their dick is a lollipop. I have not met one woman that can maintain actual logical thought like a man can while they're drunk. Fuck, I extremely RARELY drink and I maintain logical thought the entire time I drink even while I'm drunk. I may be more vulnerable to emotions in general but I know right from wrong. But women do not. They do not at all.

I kind of got off topic sort of I guess but that's what this blog is for, just... writing shit.

I dunno I guess it's going to take me a while to get over the shock that she wasn't who I thought she was.

That and I love being a MGHOW. (Man Going His Own Way vs Men Going Their Own Way, just usage change). Fuck women.

I've taken to throwing up MGTOW messages on my twitter with stuff from the MGTOW subreddit with the tagline "Don't Marry. Don't Cohabitate. #MGTOW". I've actually gained like 5 followers from this lol. It's interesting to say the least.

Anyway off to do some crap I guess.