WHOO

Watching LGR on Youtube and just finished eating some Taco Bell. Just wanted to write about my day today.

I suppose my work ethic has increased tenfold over the past six months. I also found out a week or so ago I think now, that my boss has to constantly defend me from HIS boss because he just wanted to fire me all the time. Like wtf dude I'm your last guy running this damn program cause my boss sure wasn't going to fucking take appointments. And it was EVERY SINGLE DAY apparently too.

That guy got "demoted" to a big name department in my company and kept his pay of 22 an hour. How, I don't know, but my boss just told me that that was how the company functioned. My department got merged with another Telecommunications department running in my company's building and we're under a great supervisor at the moment.

Basically in essence my boss's boss got "demoted" and we switched rooms and "merged" with a different department in my building.

But six months ago, we fired a guy who would NOT show up for work consistently so it was down to me, our Admin, and our boss. But the Admin was working part time also in the other department for some reason, because my boss's boss (Referred to here as BB) made some "deals" with some higher ups in that other department and was "loaning" him to the department, but it was affecting his work for US in our department, but we couldn't really blame him since he was placed on a team that handles literally 500 user migrations to Office 365, upwards of 500 users! That's stressful as fuck, I can barely handle a ONE user migration much less a TWO lol (even though the processes are generally the same). Anyway, so eventually our Admin was removed from our team and sent to the other telecom department, leaving just me and my boss from February to about June. In May, BB got "demoted" to the other department.

One thing you need to understand about BB: he's a bodybuilder and fucking craves attention and father figures, and his "best friend" at the time was a dude that also worked in the same room as him (as well as my boss and I) and literally never let the guy get any work done and put off his own work. He literally got one company to sue another company by being the middleman for a migration and fucking up the migration, essentially. No skin off my bones when every day I was worrying about my fucking department being shut down and having a full fucking queue every goddamn day of back to back to back to back to back to back appointments (6 appointments all day every day)and not even knowing that BB wanted to fucking fire me because of a tiny thing I'd say to a customer or some shit. It was just all super petty fucking crap.

And I don't hate the guy for that, I hate the guy for where he left MY BOSS with MY DEPARTMENT. We were literally up shit creek without a paddle. And the reason was because BB was not reporting correct things about our department to the COO IN THE FUCKING BUILDING at the meetings they were having. And to be honest if my boss hadn't stood his ground in those meetings about where our department was and the state of our department. And it made me feel terrible when my boss one day said that he hated coming into work, through no fault of my own but rather that I still enjoyed my job, I was just half-assing it, or rather "phoning it in", if you will. And it was like that for MONTHS up until BB left the room with his "best friend" (who was actually fucking annoyed as fuck with him all the time and is performing admirably as a team leader (which BB also applied for and did not get cause he's a fucking idiot) which I'm happy about.

So now we're under a better boss who passes everything we need to the COO, open communication, etc. BB was just trying to save his fucking ass from looking like an idiot to the "head honchos" and in the end it bit him in the ass. My boss feels better about his job and so do I, and we even brought on a person for an "admin" role on our team along with another guy who is on a school schedule so he's there from 6PM to midnight, generally. And it's just all around a much less depressive environment and it's really nice.

And the point of my post here today after explaining what's been happening the last half a fucking year at my job, is I got a "coaching" today (I say "coaching" instead of coaching because we generally don't need to have coachings a lot since we work in such close proximity to each other, but for the sake of "paperwork" we do have to do them like once a month or something.) and I was praised for my "hard work and dedication" which, I mean, I don't consider this job hard work. I consider fucking Circle K work hard work. But I digress, I was praised for my work and it feels gud but you know what feels better!?

THAT'S RIGHT FUCKIN MONEY BITCHES

And I'm getting a $50 Amazon gift card for my work with the company. HELLLL YEEEEAAA BOIII less than a year there and already praised for my work. Despite the "cringe" factor, our COO called me a "rock star" in terms of my work and my boss told me today on the way home that our boss basically was like 'eh he called him a rockstar, that warrants a reward right' lolol. I mighta preferred a subway gift card but it's whatever! (I think I can just buy the card on amazon or whatever so)

It's been a rocky as fuck six months and I kept my mouth shut about going to our COO about our issues and let my boss handle it. And I really do try to assist my boss in any way I can that's possible for me to help him and I know he appreciates it very much. Buys me fast food on the way home every now and again which is 100% appreciated since I'm usually starving at the end of the day heh. Also the rides home help too lol.

BUT I was writing this out and this was all required because I found out some shady ITT Tech so the company I work in is in an old ITT Tech building where I live, and there's a lot of old ITT Tech stuff that was left in this large room we call "the warehouse", which is where we store spare shit and stuff. And in there is a filing cabinet that has personal information about students that went there over MANY years as well as personal information (like social security numbers, phone numbers, emails) of students and teachers.

Now, the one thing that I found interesting is that there were three filing cabinets. The first one was all locked. The second was unlocked and the third was locked. So I opened the first drawer in the second cabinet. Nothing. Second, nothing. Third, nothing. Fourth... GEMS OF INFORMATION!

I grabbed these two binders that were in there and I opened the first one. In the pocket folder of the binder was some email correspondence as well as some other papers from the ACCSC (Accrediting Commission of Career Schools and Colleges) and the email chain I read spoke about some of the staff members emailing each other about who hired this new person who was made CHAIR OF CRIMINAL JUSTICE FOR THE SCHOOL. The new person apparently was NOT qualified to be in that position and I actually went and LinkedIn their profile (while logged in, oops) and they went from A SPRINT TECHNICAL SERVICE MANAGER TO A CHAIR OF CRIMINAL JUSTICE WITH NO SCHOOLING INBETWEEN TO BE ELEVATED TO THAT LEVEL. She now counsels people at a psychology clinic here which scares me even more. The school was investigated by ACCSC and basically found lacking for many things for students in 2008, but I learned today that ITT Tech shut down in 2016. TWO YEARS ago, the whole organization.

My department and I laughed our asses off and I took a screenshot of her work history without any other information in the picture about her. There was also a BUNCH of other binders (also I found out she was fired after ACCSC found out she did not have the correct education for the position lol obviously) and there were like the "end of class surveys" where people graded their teachers and left comments about the class and stuff and I learned two things:

One, that ITT Tech had ONE computer room for students to use for classwork.

Two, that computer room got changed into a classroom that USED those computers actively for that class.

Three, eventually that became a problem so they played "musical classrooms" and when people needed to use the computers they moved the class to another classroom, etc etc.

Four, a TON of really cool teachers worked there apparently based on the students' comments on those many black and white pages I leafed through.

I feel so bad for the students that got "degrees" from there because I'm pretty sure they're invalid now. I did also find some SUPER OLD binders from 1991! The papers were stuck together and stuff and had that old paper feel... shudders oh man that was gud shit. But yeah, today was an adventure. Finding out the staff just hired anyone with a pulse to teach students... oh yeah and a lot of classes also were missing a lot of "teaching hours" and stuff so people were getting a half-assed education on top of that! It was ridiculous to read about this.

I'm glad they're gone but I wonder what my schooling is going to be like from a similar school like Full Sail University... we were cracking jokes about it actually, was pretty good.

Anyway I guess I'm off to play WoW or something. o/

Left

Ugh I left my guild on WoW today (last night). So tired of people not assisting other people to gear. My guild was running mythics w 3 people last night, they ran like 3 in a row. Like what the fuck dude. I kept telling them IF IT'S LATER IN THE DAY INVITE ME PLEASE. I waited until around 1AM when no one was on and left.

I'm just gonna make a fucking warlock I guess then cause fuck this shitty crap not being selected for mythic runs. I'm so tired of working late night jobs. I work 1 - 9 now. I love my job but fucking hell the times suck ass. And I get able to get on my computer at like near 10PM right now cause my stepdad isn't home to feed his fucking dog and let him go to the bathroom so after I get home from work, I HAVE TO DO IT. These arent my fucking pets and I am not very attached to them.At this point because my time is being eaten by these fucks I constantly think about just letting them go somewhere and not coming back. I don't want to take care of fucking animals. I literally cannot do this. I am irresponsible and cannot take care of other things.

Fucking hell. Fycking HELL

Drinking and you...me

Fucking a. Yeah I wish I could fucking drink away my sorrows but guess fucking what, whoever's still dead today is gonna be DEAD TOMORROW. don't join fucking shit that people are a part of if you're fucking drunk and going to fuck it up and not listen to fucking directions.

I fucking wish I could just DRINK whenever something bad happened. Someone dies!? DRINK THE NIGHT AWAY! Pet dies?! DRINK! Something fucking bad happens? DRINK!

And I tried it. I did. But drinking solves fucking NOTHING for you or for anyone else. Now, drinking is fun and to have a good time with it is nice, socially, etc. But to drink and join things that other people are going to be a part of and depend on you for? Nah. Nah dude. Nah. You can fuck off.

I just had a tank that was drunk because his grandpa died. YOU KNOW WHAT I DID WHEN MY GRAMPS DIED? I FUCKING WORKED, WENT HOME, ATE DINNER, SLEPT, AND WENT BACK TO FUCKING WORK. Fuck all these weak ass fucking bitches who can't take a fucking problem and handle it BACK INTO THE FUCKING GROUND WHERE IT BELONGS. FUCK! And even going through my breakup, yeah, I got drunk a few nights, but I soon realized that it meant fucking nothing because guess what, she's still there laughing with her guild in the fucking morning, so why bother wasting money on that shit? One year of that... god I was such a fucking pussy. Jesus christ. I could write a whole post just hating on my past self for being a goddamn idiot. Shoulda fucking tossed her out as soon as we broke up. BUT I guess I wouldn't be where I am today if I did most likely, so, eyyy. Cool job, school, the works. Better than she's ever going to have it what with the "social anxiety". Bitch fucking please as soon as you were on those meds you were hopping on that cock carousel like the rest of the women on this planet right now.

At least I got a piece of gear out of it.

Oh great, it's something I didn't need. Goddamn it.

And yeah, I know I used to be a wimpy fucking babby piece of shit but after being that way my whole life and being mentally stepped on by people who don't care about me, it's fucking done. If you can't handle your fucking problems without "EMOSHUNAL SUPPORTZ" then fuck you, go kill yourself. And if you can't kill yourself then I guess it's time to fucking GET REAL and live for yourself, cause you're the only one that matters in this life, so make it fucking count.

There is only one thing I will always be a little bitch about, though, but I'm getting better about it.

2 posts in fucking 2 days wow

Jesus christ I like having people to run instances with but holy fucking cow the amount of people who don't even look at the adventure journal to fucking read about encounters is astounding. Also, FatBoss sucks butt. If you can explain an encounter in less than 50 words, those videos should be like fucking 3 minutes long. I could make better fucking guides than those elitist pricks

Holy fuck I am so fucking pissed off right now. Like ridiculously pissed off to the point where my vertigo problem is fucking happening right now and I've barely moved my head in the past 3 hours. Hooooooooooooly shit.

Okay I had to take ten minutes to just cool the fuck off. This is getting to be a real problem for me and it's getting harder and harder to not lash out at something and I'm afraid it's going to be at work or online and get me booted from my guild. It doesn't help that I have an elitist attitude when I get better gear and better DPS in WoW and it mildly carries over to IRL. Fuck. I can't even write when I'm like this because it's going to carry over into my writing, and it sucks.

I've taken to mentally creating a room just full of "boxes" with various angry emotions in it and whenever I have an angry emotion it's visualized as a "spirit" of sorts in my head and I take it and put it in a box when I'm angry or mad or even sad. it's basically bottling things up I guess, but it's the only way I know how to deal with it because I don't have anyone to talk to about anything in my life... besides this blog. And this helps somewhat but I probably just need therapy. Too bad therapy is expensive as fuck and I don't wanna pay for that shit. I just want fast food goddammit. And now my bank account is 17 bucks negative so guess who doesn't get to eat for a week? Me. -_-. I just don't know what to do. FML. It doesn't help that it's hot as fuck in my room all the goddamn fucking time because my stepdad won't fix the fucking vents underneath the fucking house. I'd do it if I knew what the fuck to do and had the fucking materials, but I don't and I don't even know where to start with that shit. Fuck. FuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuck.FuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuck.

Fuck. Now fuck doesn't even look like a word lul. Goddamn it's either be hot and have a lower electric bill maybe or be cooled off and pay out the fucking ass for electricity. If this next month's electric bill is 320 dollar I'm gonna be fucking pissed too cause TEP sent a letter saying it was going to be 255 dollars. Uggggggggh fuck. Doesn't help I'm hungry as fuck right now too and can't eat anything cause I have to save it for the week to use for lunches at work and I already ate two peanut butter sandwiches today... dangit. I have no idea where my fucking money goes.

Alright I'm getting pissed off again, I'm just gonna suffer in silence and watch youtube. At least John Oliver is funny.

clingy fuckin ass people

ugh jesus christ

I fucking helped someone in my guild complete six island expeditions because I got azerite power out of it, but after that they wanted to do world quests together. Fuck me sideways no. I don't do world quests with other people because then I HAVE TO WAIT for them to fucking complete the damn objective. Obviously this is different if I'm playing with a friend but with a guildie I barely know? nah. nah man nah. So I had to make like I was going to bed and then stayed on and they logged so I can complete my damn honorbound rep quests.

I love helping FRIENDS, I hate helping random people unless I'm getting something out of it. Also apparently I hate helping family as well/people who are close to me/spending time with people who are close to me as well as evidenced by my last relationshit. I am attempting to fix the family bit at least, though. And since I'll never have another SO, I don't have to worry about that bullshit anymore. /chuckletoself

I'm pretty tired, maybe I'll just go to sleep instead of finishing these rep quests but it's friday night so if I want to stay up this is the night to do it. FML. This week sucked so much ass it's unreal too. So many rude fucking australians. "I DONT HAVE TIME TO CHECK MY EMAIL IM RUNNING A BUSINESS!" bitch, then don't fucking complain when you're clicking random buttons and making appointments where you don't know what they're for! This encompasses like 99% of my job. -_- I love my job but sometimes man... you really see how much common sense people have which is fucking 0. it doesn't help that the aussie telecom company doesn't give two shits about us as evidenced by their rescheduling of our latest meeting. They're too big to actually get anything done. God if I ever start a company I will make that shit efficent as FUCK. AS. FUCK. ASSSSSSSSSSSSS FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK. Because holy shit that company is a fucking nightmare.

What else...

I was hoping jake would be on today as well so we could farm The motherlode dungeon for his gun today but nope. I'm leaps and bounds in front of him for gear at the moment. Also my guild just released their raid schedule and I can't fucking join them because it's 6 server time (our time) to 830PM. So I had to tell one of the officers on discord I couldn't make it and they seemed genuinely sad about it. I do hope they make a "later" raid team. I wouldn't even mind something like ... well, depending on the time I get home at the moment it'd have to be 10PM to 12AM or something, which is fine with me cause that's typically my bedtime anyway so. Ish. Sometimes I go to bed at 1 or 2. I wish I could stay up later but man I just pass out. Sucks to get old, I guess. SUCKS TO SUCK

my brain is so fried from this week. I wish I had a 3 day weekend or had monday off (holiday) but we don't because australia doesn't have US holidays of course. I did clean my room last weekend so now I can actually walk around my room, which is nice.

Also my fucking mom is retarded. She's being baited by some fucker calling himself tom cruise and she's sending him literally all of her money now all the time from her social security checks. Meanwhile my stepdad is apparently getting shafted for money being a journeyman electrician cause he said all last week he pretty much starved at work due to bills he has to pay (mostly loans I guess. Idk his finances). My acid reflux is basically coming back because of this fucking stress.

But you know how women are. They're fucking CRAZY. As soon as this fucker doesn't pick her up in october she's just gonna be like 'oh it's ok' and fucking keep sending that fucker money. I sincerely hope whoever that fuck is dies in a fucking fire. Not even because of my mom, because of the stress that fucker is causing ME. jesus if my stepdad wasn't here I'd have taken my sister and I'd be fucking GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONE dude. Like moved out a month ago. I had places lined up and everything.

One more month. Well, at least I have a good time at work, generally, so that's a big stress reliever. Okay, back to WoW. I opened up my lappy to write this lol