Jesus christ I like having people to run instances with but holy fucking cow the amount of people who don't even look at the adventure journal to fucking read about encounters is astounding. Also, FatBoss sucks butt. If you can explain an encounter in less than 50 words, those videos should be like fucking 3 minutes long. I could make better fucking guides than those elitist pricks
Holy fuck I am so fucking pissed off right now. Like ridiculously pissed off to the point where my vertigo problem is fucking happening right now and I've barely moved my head in the past 3 hours. Hooooooooooooly shit.
Okay I had to take ten minutes to just cool the fuck off. This is getting to be a real problem for me and it's getting harder and harder to not lash out at something and I'm afraid it's going to be at work or online and get me booted from my guild. It doesn't help that I have an elitist attitude when I get better gear and better DPS in WoW and it mildly carries over to IRL. Fuck. I can't even write when I'm like this because it's going to carry over into my writing, and it sucks.
I've taken to mentally creating a room just full of "boxes" with various angry emotions in it and whenever I have an angry emotion it's visualized as a "spirit" of sorts in my head and I take it and put it in a box when I'm angry or mad or even sad. it's basically bottling things up I guess, but it's the only way I know how to deal with it because I don't have anyone to talk to about anything in my life... besides this blog. And this helps somewhat but I probably just need therapy. Too bad therapy is expensive as fuck and I don't wanna pay for that shit. I just want fast food goddammit. And now my bank account is 17 bucks negative so guess who doesn't get to eat for a week? Me. -_-. I just don't know what to do. FML. It doesn't help that it's hot as fuck in my room all the goddamn fucking time because my stepdad won't fix the fucking vents underneath the fucking house. I'd do it if I knew what the fuck to do and had the fucking materials, but I don't and I don't even know where to start with that shit. Fuck. FuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuck.FuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuck.
Fuck. Now fuck doesn't even look like a word lul. Goddamn it's either be hot and have a lower electric bill maybe or be cooled off and pay out the fucking ass for electricity. If this next month's electric bill is 320 dollar I'm gonna be fucking pissed too cause TEP sent a letter saying it was going to be 255 dollars. Uggggggggh fuck. Doesn't help I'm hungry as fuck right now too and can't eat anything cause I have to save it for the week to use for lunches at work and I already ate two peanut butter sandwiches today... dangit. I have no idea where my fucking money goes.
Alright I'm getting pissed off again, I'm just gonna suffer in silence and watch youtube. At least John Oliver is funny.
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