burden

Dream

Rq: had a dream that I was playing a game with jake and immediately got replaced in the party. :|

Guilds...

Unfortunately I don't have time to dedicate to "guild activities", probably about an hour or two a night past 10PM MST, usually 1 hour. A lot of guilds I've tried to join do literally nothing past 9PM my time so.

I've had a lot of bad experiences with all the guilds I've been in throughout my WoW career since '07 and it's hard to jump back into that "scene" again, where everyone already knows each other and you're the outsider based on my WoW experience so far in life.

I recently tried again and just asked if anyone out of the ~25 people who were on wanted to run mythics as soon as I popped in (when the advertisement was WE RUN MYTHICS A LOT ALL THE TIME) and got shit. I could have waited but with an advertisement like that you'd think people would be running keystones all the time or something.

I'm really tired of being ignored all the time and feeling like I'm a pity case for higher geared people to "help" or generally being "used", so it's just better for me to dream about having a group of friends versus feeling like that all the time in a guild, substantially better anyway. Just waiting for the Zandalari race to drop and then I'm outta the game for a while again anyway, so.

Might sound like I'm throwing myself a pity party but when you deal with the same thing over and over again for 10+ years playing this game, it's an indicator that you're definitely not important to anyone you come across, no matter if you're in a guild or not. It's just fuckin' annoying. I sound like a fucking 13 year old on discord too which doesn't help my case much (26, coming on 27) and makes people not want to interact with me. I keep to myself and I'm pretty sure I'm not inherently annoying since I have groups online I hang out with in discord chats and streams, so I'm not really sure what it is.

it's just a whole big ball of unkempt bad luck and being a "background character personality", and I'm happy dreaming of the friends I might have had in a different life versus going through the shit I've gone through playing WoW since the end of vanilla.

tldr; cliques in guilds using newbies for their raiding materials, background character personality, sounding like a young kid to people on discord, and general unable being to merge with people in guilds doesn't work for me, I prefer to dream instead of do, in this game. "Try joining a guild" advice hasn't work since LFR and as the playerbase drops and gets more fractured, it's going to be even harder.

https://www.reddit.com/r/wow/comments/akgrme/found_an_old_relic_in_my_bank_from_before/ef5euyy/?context=3

Don't have anyone else to tell, so...

I got the promotion at work as I mentioned previously and I just wanted to tell someone that today was awesome for me.

My boss was running a little promotion where he was giving amazon gift cards to the people to sell specific packages first to people on calls. I sold one of the packages today and got one of the gift cards! It's just a wee $10 amazon gift card but still it's something. I waited until the end of the day to put it on my balance because I kept thinking the guy would call back wanting to cancel the package, but he didn't, so it's mine now, mwhahaha.

I didn't really want to tell the community I'm a part of (TLM's community) cause it would have taken too much explaining but man things are looking up.

I really have to read through the azure directory stuff to get my microsoft cert... I only have a month left and work is going to pile up really fast. Dang it.

Well I just wanted to tell someone that my day was finally awesome, hasn't been in a long time. A very... long time. It's been a long time since I have felt really accomplished with myself for doing something.

I might be a potato but goddamn I'm a potato that can sell and work like no tomorrow!

It's only 1:35 AM but I think I'll head to bed. Also set up my oculus sensors on my walls today which is cool as well, it works great and I plan on buying a third sensor to slap onto my back wall.

Okay, off to bed.

marriage

Marriage is a game over in today's spoiled-rich-girl-but-not-a-rich-girl culture, especially for men, and what women can get away with is astounding. They can ruin men's lives via divorce, if they have a kid that's tons of money in child support being funneled away from the guy or else he goes to prison. Cheating, and consequently STDs are promoted through this mentality as well, that once they're "tired" of this husband they can just dispose of them and find a new "boytoy".

I would not get married if my life depended on it in this day and age. I'd rather shoot myself, if it came down to it. I'm not risking a relationship where the other person can literally kill me anytime they want, emotionally or physically.

This is just my train of thought but marriage as a whole should be phased out. If you find someone you wanna live with forever, that's cool but you should still be your own individual people, and there are a lot of women out there who are not their own individual person and require a man to be "whole", which is a load of crock. Unfortunately tax breaks make marriage a thing and stuff like that.

Not to mention the media giving girls/women that "they too, can have the 50 thousand dollar wedding of their dreams at any moment of their lives without fail!" Please.

There is so much wrong with the institution of marriage for both women and men that everyone should just stop and develop themselves before dicking around with each other, but that's never going to happen.

https://www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/comments/afdwye/what_toxic_behavior_has_been_normalized_by_society/

Promotion and other things

So I got a promotion at work, yay. Unfortunately that came with 2 tickets to a hockey game. I decided to try and go because it was a "team thing". Unfortunately I was seated far away from my team and spent about half the game there in that seat and then got to move closer. I regret my whole fucking night going there. I don't know how people go to fucking sporting events, that was the most boring 2 hours of my whole life and I was freezing the whole game. The game would have been over in an hour but fuck me if they wanna fucking play goddamn random shit every 5 minutes for 10 minutes. Fucking ridiculous.

I regret my whole night but at least I got to catch my favorite streamer still streaming, but I'm not going to go to these things any more, not worth my friday time before the weekend when the streams suck dick. I fucking hate co-op streams when mage plays fucking WoW and No Man's fucking BUTT-HOLE. Even though I'll be resubbing to WoW soon to play a Zandalari Troll, it will be begrudgingly because I highly dislike giving money to Blizzard at the moment.

Goddamn tonight was fucking wasted. And then my new boss has me go give someone else on the team a second ticket like fucking ok I have to run out and I almost didnt get let back in because I didn't get "scanned out" by someone when I went out. Like wtf man are you fucking kidding me. Ugh... god my whole night is fucking wasted. If we go bowling, fine. If we go to anything else but a sports game, fine. I'm never doing that again, jesus christ.

But I got an additional 1 dollar an hour so that's cool, starting monday as far as I know. Still waiting on my W2s for taxes :(

now to decompress from all the shouting around me at the fucking match...

Play stupid games, win stupid prizes

My fucking stepdad is a fucking idiot.

Whenever he/my mom/mostly him though makes meals for us to eat and then all the leftovers are gone the next day he bitches at my sister and I because they're gone. Like fucking hell, okay, fine, eventually we just stopped eating leftovers.

So now he's bitching no one ate leftovers. BITCH YOU FUCKING YELL AND SCREAM WHEN PEOPLE ATE THEM BEFORE! I'm not getting bitched at.

I fucking label my food with my name and in numerical order so I know if someone ate my goddamn food that I bought with MY money. Fucking idiots in this fucking house just wanna take everything for themselves that other people buy without asking. Not once have I taken a piece of food without asking if I could have it to the required person. If the required person wasn't there then I didn't get the food and made do with something else.

We're literally all roommates in this house and it sucks ass. It's not a family, it's a mishmash of people on the guard from each other and it's fucking exhausting, esp when my sister is around and can just fly off the fucking handle at any time for whatever reason. If I didn't have such a good job here I probably would have moved in with my dad and grandma already in Georgia tbh, I don't know where I'd be in life if I did that though. I'd probably be driving a car at least though I know that. Fuck driving trucks though, shit's scary.

Okay I'm done #firstworldproblem-ing.

https://www.reddit.com/r/rant/comments/aergzh/why_would_you_complain_about_leftovers_being/?