I think something is happening with Jake, but...

... I can't pin it down. He's wanting to co-op a lot more and has bought me literally 3 games to co-op in which I'm extremely uncomfortable with considering the dude has a family he should be dropping that money on instead. I'm in no need of video games as I'm still working on FF7R and Octopath on my Switch. I didn't even really talk with him about 2 of the games, Last Oasis he just bought after we reviewed some gameplay footage because he wanted to be a sand pirate lel. But the game was boring to me so we dropped it. Well, I dropped it, he played and got to the Hard maps in the game, I dunno if he still plays it or not.

Then he bought me the Warhammer Inquisitor: Martyr set with all the dlc for like 16 bucks so we could play that together. Ever since playing Warhammer Chaosbane (an isometric RPG) with a controller, playing isometrics with a controller is extremely nice. Too bad Diablo 3 on PC won't add controller support either.

Then today I wake up and see he bought Risk of Rain 2 for me, which I had previously played with Mage and was kind of burnt out on tbh. It was fun but it's not something I feel like playing right now. I just want a deep story to sit back with and relax and not think and just be immersed. I love Jake (as a friend ofc, I ain't gay) and I appreciate the games but... something's going on. He did say he got a bonus but it was only 700 bucks. I wouldn't be buying 3 30 dollar games with a 7 hundo bonus. Shit I barely get to buy 1 or 2 games a month even with my normal 700-800 dollar paychecks.

I dunno what's going on but I am trying my best to play with him and stuff but like... we barely say 2 words on discord to each other most of the time while we play too lol. I dunno. I don't even feel good mentally today at all after a dream I had either which involved Drake crying for critizing my hair, a turn based strategy game that doesn't exist (and that I don't remember the details of so I can't make it if I wanted to anyway) and some other crap, and now I see Jake buys me Risk of Rain 2. Just... bruh.

I'm also extremely sore all over due to work and I keep sleeping an extra 2 hours despite trying to get up at 2 PM but I never do now. The first few days back to work I did but now I keep sleeping in and it's pissing me off because all I wanna do is play some goddamn video games before I go to work. Games I want to play, I love co-oping with Jake but after years of being ignored and living on my own and having no one to support me mentally it's just come down to the point where I just want to do stuff I want to do all the time instead of things other people might want to do with me. After years of being shoved to the side in favor of a family and a gf, it's like... eh. I can't just flip years of that shit off, man.

I know he's having issues with his girl though. I remember in high school we always said we were gonna move in together and just be rolling in money and gaming all the time and shiz, and that never really happened. But he told me he regrets not doing it, but, to be honest, not my problem. You wanna go chasing used up, manipulative old lady poon and taking care of children that aren't yours, be my guest. Shit, at this point even if he split from her I bet she'd sue for child support even though he isn't the real dad. She's a fucking potato.

/shrug

Back to farming gil with an exploit in ff7r I guess.

Dreams suck

Was sleeping.

Dreaming about effing a girl in the backdoor

Alarm goes off

Try to go back to sleep, but nope

My brain is immediately like "TIME TO THINK ABOUT WORK AND EVERYTHING THAT COMES WITH THAT"

God dangit. GAHD DANGIT

GAHD DANGIT

Y'know it's funny cause you'd think I'd care about remembering what she looked like (hair, eyes, face, body) but all I know is she was "hot" and I was gonna bang. /shrug. I don't remember what dream-girl looked like.

Anyway, game grumps is so good lol

Dwarf Fortress: Logemizeg, "Paintedape"

Why is it the forts with the stupidest names always do the best?

Welp, whatever. I am running a nice fort rn, and decided to raid an elven village. Turns out that sending a bunch of dwarves without weapons or armor is a bad idea. More than half the squad, including the militia commander, got taken prisoner.

I will get them back or die trying! Damned elves!

Dwarf Fortress: Ganadoltar, "Specialgild"

So this fortress started innocently enough. I got migrants, got a nice base layout going 1 layer underground, dug some barracks and training areas to get an army going sooner rather than later, and it was all well and good.

It's all ASCII but you can generally tell I had a lot of materials and stuff built/going. It was going extremely well in fact. I had just started smelting weapons and armor. I had focused on armor in the beginning of it, which was fine, but I quickly ran out of iron and didn't really have a lot of copper to work with, much less much iron to mess around with. I probably produced only several pieces of armor to outfit twenty dwarves.

Also, I need to not let in as many performers, cause holy shit my tavern got packed rq with monster slayers and poets and bards, ugh.

Anyway, so I started smithing armor, and maybe 30 minutes goes by, after which I'm out of iron so I cancel all the work orders, and then this motherFUCKING shit happens:

See all those little bitchass capital Ns with the ~ squiggly? Those are zombies. My dwarves had been training for the better part of several months, but they were just... probably wrestling with each other and training that, cause I had 0 weapons. Mayhaps I should have made some training weapons... I guess I'll do that in the next fort. Anyway, you can see all the little faces in their pools of blood, they're all dead. All twenty dwarves. In a matter of oh, probably a minute or two. sobs due to loss of dwarfy life 

Time to let the zombies in, I guess.

!!FUN!!

Edit: Oh, the corpses were actually equipped with weapons and armor too... god dangit

😥

Dwarf Fortress: Egomdatan, Natureiron

So... I had a very nice fort going in Dwarf Fortress. I had just traded a bunch of spiked wooden balls for a bunch of metal from the "homeland", and I was in the process of setting up a well for water, as well as (hah) setting up a hospital for all the bar brawling that was happening in my tavern 5 layers underground or so.

Well, this shit happened.

I retired the fortress. Everyone was... everyone was dead. Blood everywhere, body parts all over the place, dead animals everywhere.

Fudges.

Time to begin anew. YOUR END IS NIGH, BAL ENSHALMADUSH!

Last Oasis.

So Last Oasis is a pretty decent game.

Jake and I made some Spider Walkers tonight to scale cliffs so we could get into the center of the map to get some cattails for Nomad Cloth making, which is a material we need for armor and weapons. Unfortunately they take fifty cattails each, which means getting enough cattails is a pain in the ass.

So we went to the middle of the map after safe logging our clan's walker (our clan is just him and I) and found out there were no cattails there, RIP. But there were pearls. So we gathered some to use for crafting later and then I logged off. It took us like, an hour to get there... uggggh. It's alright though. Jake bought me the game so I've been trying to play it for his sake but just... man it's tough. The game is pretty boring because we have to farm materials to gear up basically :/ it's really annoying.

Also, it took me like 30 minutes to write up to this because I kept zoning out and getting into my own head and regrets started floating up to the surface.

Ooooh boy back to dwarf fortress