... I can't pin it down. He's wanting to co-op a lot more and has bought me literally 3 games to co-op in which I'm extremely uncomfortable with considering the dude has a family he should be dropping that money on instead. I'm in no need of video games as I'm still working on FF7R and Octopath on my Switch. I didn't even really talk with him about 2 of the games, Last Oasis he just bought after we reviewed some gameplay footage because he wanted to be a sand pirate lel. But the game was boring to me so we dropped it. Well, I dropped it, he played and got to the Hard maps in the game, I dunno if he still plays it or not.
Then he bought me the Warhammer Inquisitor: Martyr set with all the dlc for like 16 bucks so we could play that together. Ever since playing Warhammer Chaosbane (an isometric RPG) with a controller, playing isometrics with a controller is extremely nice. Too bad Diablo 3 on PC won't add controller support either.
Then today I wake up and see he bought Risk of Rain 2 for me, which I had previously played with Mage and was kind of burnt out on tbh. It was fun but it's not something I feel like playing right now. I just want a deep story to sit back with and relax and not think and just be immersed. I love Jake (as a friend ofc, I ain't gay) and I appreciate the games but... something's going on. He did say he got a bonus but it was only 700 bucks. I wouldn't be buying 3 30 dollar games with a 7 hundo bonus. Shit I barely get to buy 1 or 2 games a month even with my normal 700-800 dollar paychecks.
I dunno what's going on but I am trying my best to play with him and stuff but like... we barely say 2 words on discord to each other most of the time while we play too lol. I dunno. I don't even feel good mentally today at all after a dream I had either which involved Drake crying for critizing my hair, a turn based strategy game that doesn't exist (and that I don't remember the details of so I can't make it if I wanted to anyway) and some other crap, and now I see Jake buys me Risk of Rain 2. Just... bruh.
I'm also extremely sore all over due to work and I keep sleeping an extra 2 hours despite trying to get up at 2 PM but I never do now. The first few days back to work I did but now I keep sleeping in and it's pissing me off because all I wanna do is play some goddamn video games before I go to work. Games I want to play, I love co-oping with Jake but after years of being ignored and living on my own and having no one to support me mentally it's just come down to the point where I just want to do stuff I want to do all the time instead of things other people might want to do with me. After years of being shoved to the side in favor of a family and a gf, it's like... eh. I can't just flip years of that shit off, man.
I know he's having issues with his girl though. I remember in high school we always said we were gonna move in together and just be rolling in money and gaming all the time and shiz, and that never really happened. But he told me he regrets not doing it, but, to be honest, not my problem. You wanna go chasing used up, manipulative old lady poon and taking care of children that aren't yours, be my guest. Shit, at this point even if he split from her I bet she'd sue for child support even though he isn't the real dad. She's a fucking potato.
/shrug
Back to farming gil with an exploit in ff7r I guess.
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