Tired of working jobs I don't enjoy, and tired of having autism/adhd so that I can't study things I do enjoy because work = paycheck and if I'm making a paycheck my offtime means video games and youtube instead of studying.
I'm also a huge burden to my family and just wish I'd die in my sleep or something every night. None of my "friends" communicate with me a lot as they have other people they talk to and I'm pretty low on the totem pole for them but they're always my highest priority. I wish I had someone who prioritized me like I prioritize them. I'm tired of being treated like a retard and I'm tired of being alone. I want a clique of friends and I'm fucking tired of being pitied and I don't know what the fuck to do about it.
I moved in with my nan and my dad and literally every night I realize I have not talked to anyone else in person that's my age for a couple years and it's just me all the way down and I hate it man. It's been years since I've been around people IRL much less people that enjoyed being around me like in high school, people who actively sought me out. Now it's just depression and being alone in my head 24/7. Ofc I wouldn't seek this out rn cause corona but just... fuck dude. I just want someone to make me feel like I'm entertaining them and I want to feel wanted. I hate that I'm boring as fuck and uninteresting but that's what happens when you have no money to experience anything in the first place I guess.
https://www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/comments/n6vgac/how_tired_are_you/
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