I'm done

I'm done.

Done with trying to find a decent girl. Done with relationships, done with everything.

I got a second job to pay off my CCs and send Haley back home.

Probably going to buy the tickets dated for the 7th next month for Greyhound. So yap.

She doesn't want to get back together, but she doesn't want to get a job and all she wants to do is sit around and not do any housework when I repeatedly tell her that she needs to do it if she doesn't have a job.

And putting in a few hours a day on a computer where you can dick around and talk with friends is not a fucking job for 30  dollars a week. I appreciate the help when I was low on money but she's stopped timing her deposits and everything which is why I had to get the second job over at Dollar General (which really sucks, btw. It's easy but the cash drawer is like... in the friggin counter so it's really low and I'm really tall :| goddangit so annoying)

I'm friggin working all 3 shifts at Circle K now as well as working any shift at DG. FML so hard right now goddamnit.

I've started just shutting my door. I don't want to hear her talking with people, I don't want to see her playing shit, I don't want to see her period.

At this point I'm just filled with a dull hate-ache for her I guess is how I can put it. She was complaining I go through too many dishes the other day and I was like REALLY? I GO THROUGH TOO MANY DISHES WHEN I AM WORKING AND ACTUALLY NEEDING FOOD TO WORK? I didn't say that to her. But she essentially just called me fat.

When I'm the one working and providing a roof over her head and food to eat and applying to the fucking food stamps place for the 50 dollars in food stamps I get for just having HER here? And I won't even get any food stamps the next time around because she's going to drop off it (laws :| ). She has the GALL to complain about doing fucking ONE chore that I have to remind her over the course of 3-5 days to fucking get done? AND THEN she waits until the absolute last minute to do the shit instead of just doing it in the first place and getting it over with instead? Come on really? -_-

Well I'll see how she likes it when I spring these fucking tickets on her and tell her she has two weeks to get everything she wants to bring ready and the rest I'll ship to her using my DG money AFTER my CCs are paid off most likely.

She's talking and laughing with some person (prolly a dude btw) on Teamspeak right now. God she's changed so much it's ridiculous.

Hating my first ex was very sporadic and just a deep hatred. But hating this one is just a personable hate, not anything deep or anything. Just resentment. Resentment for her being a fucking retard for not telling me what I was doing was hurting her before we broke up. Resentment for her being a lazy ass. Resentment for her being a fucking idiot while I'm over here working my ass off to fucking keep her fed and clothed and everything fucking else she fucking needs.

Fuck this shit.

I fucking work overnights and I work overnight into one of my fucking days off too. Fuck. I fucking hate wasting half of a fucking day off. This is so, oh wait, NO, I work at DG this Monday too RIGHT AFTER my fucking overnight shift at circle K! GREAT!

Goddamn it fucking money. Fuck everything.