Same OP. One by one I get bored of games until I sit at home and do nothing because all my income goes to my bills (and 2 credit cards that I keep fucking maxing out instead of paying off like a retard to buy more video games that I end up stopping playing 100 hours or less into the game)
shit really sucks. Along with the fact that I'm too wimpy to kill myself, and I broke up with the only woman in the world that will ever love me for who I am (was with her 6 years and I got jealous over another person's relationship and instead of talking it out I jumped to a breakup... worst decision in my entire 24 years of living and will always be my worst decision forever) I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I am just... lost. I have no support, no nothing. Oh, and she's living with me still too. No sex, no nothing, she just plays WoW all day while I moved into the bedroom and just sit here bymyself listening to her laugh with her guildies on wow. Rips my soul into pieces.
I just wish I had a PASSION for something that I could just throw myself into so I would barely ever have to be home but after an 8 hour workday I'm always exhausted and just want to sit. I've tried coding Java, C++, Ruby, I've tried making art (lol w/o a tablet it's shit btw), I've tried gaming (I love gaming but I suck donkey dick at it tbh, I just am not SPECTACULAR at anything I play ever), I've tried writing, I've tried reading (Read all the books in my house prolly around 50-60 books, love reading but no money for books) and I just don't know what the fuck to do anymore.
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