Posty-toasty

You know, I’ve always done everything by the skin of my teeth.

As I’m sitting here playing Minecraft and reflecting on the good old days of Jake and I playing MC and other games together (that I’ll never have back), I realize that I’ve always done something just BARELY getting by in the task at hand. But I guess I’ve always taken that for just how I was.

For an example, in the Tinker’s Construct mod in Minecraft if I was playing normally (I’m not right now, I’m using JEI (Just Enough Items) to cheat in materials because I’m following Direwolf20’s playthrough and I want to follow the stuff he makes) and basically in life I always just barely have enough money to get by. Or I just barely have enough materials in Minecraft to do what I want to do. And it’s not even by personal choice, a lot of times it’s just how the dice is rolled for what materials I gather in the game. Money is a different beast altogether, but still, it’s the same concept.

I’m basically living on Easter leftovers/mac and cheese/tuna cans at the moment. It’s actually not bad but I don’t even know where my last paycheck went, man. Like fuck. Though admittedly I did give like 60 bucks to my sister which is not happening again ever, I’m giving her 50 bucks for 4 months (35 on paychecks where I have to pay TEP) and after those 4 months she is SOL for shit she wants. So she better save that shit for food cause I’m barely feeding her as is. She’s not my responsibility, she’s my parents responsibility, so f that shit. I’m happy to take her with me places and out to eat on my dime every now and again but it’s not looking so good for her right now. Friday, when I get paid at the moment, is coming up and her room is not clean at all.

Anyway, I’m getting sidetracked from my original intent of this post. (Also making soft clay on RS for money so that’s pulling me away too lol) The point is I’m always getting by just BARELY. My entire life. Fuck, I’m making 2 dollars more an hour just about now and getting paid in lump sums every two weeks and I’m STILL failing hard on holding onto cash. 2 paychecks ago I thought just buying fast food for two weeks would save me money. It might’ve if I hadn’t spent a lot of that having the food delivered on UberEats though, heh. If I woulda walked up there it would have saved me money, but ain’t nobody got time for that. Especially now with my work increasing at work, sometimes I only get 1 day off (OT though so whoopee! MONAY MONAY MONAY) (Intentional misspelling) But still.

I dunno, I was just thinking about that and I wanted to snowball the idea out and see what I could get out of me today but that’s really it. Back to MC / RS. I have a lot of work coming up in the coming weeks too, ugh. UGGGGGGH. UGH. But at least it’s at a workplace I enjoy and that is the one thing I am thankful for in my life. That and my computer set-up.