Tuesday, July 23, 2019

I can tell it's going to be a long fucking 6 months or more.

So I got put back onto my old team at work as I mentioned previously after my boss and friend got fired. However I got an employee from the other telecommunications department, which is good. But now, one, I'm acting in a pseudo-team lead role and trainer role since I have to generally train this guy on migrations and basically be available to help him with any migrations that may arise. I wish I was getting paid a lot more than I am right now, cause this is fucking stupid. I even shot myself in the foot, cause my now-direct boss, leader of telco, said that I would be making 18-21 an hour but in reality I had asked for 16 without thinking of the talk we had.

Also, why does all management like to beat around the bush and just fucking talk about flowery shit instead of getting to the point and saying yes or no or whatever needs to be said? It's fucking stupid.

STUUUUUUUUPID.

Anyway, so mister I-wanna-leave-early all the time didn't show up today for work, my "employee", so he missed a lot of shit that I guarantee I'm not going to remember tomorrow, but I'm going to divvy him a migration appointment  - wait no I'm not he's going to shadow me... fuck. I forgot I had to train the fucker in migrations. God damn it all.

I'm not even under a huge amount of stress, it's just that I'm handling a little bit of a video game addiction problem at the moment with Monster Hunter World. I'm staying up until like 5 AM some nights (cause I go into work late, shift is 3 to midnight, 11 if we don't punch out for lunch) and I keep just wanting to leave super early because there's nothing to fucking dooooooooooooooooooooo. It's so fucking boring. Luckily when I begin these migrations tomorrow I'll have stuff to do (hopefully, if the company we're contracted with gets back to me with server settings to pull mail from...) but I guess... I dunno. I'm struggling to find shit to do. I reply to emails quickly and efficiently, and I'm sure these migrations will be done in no time, so... I'm really not sure what to do with the rest of the day.... aghhhhhh. I even left early today at 8 after coming in at 1 to come home while it was raining and play MHW.

On a sidenote I fucking love living on my own right now. It's so nice. It's quiet (there's some stomping upstairs sometimes from what I can only guess is a literal fucking elephant) and relaxing and weekends are great, and I can do aaaaaanything I want without anyone judging me in my own home. Gets lonely sometimes but I can't knock holding onto food and stuff.

I'm not depressed or angry or sad, I don't want a pet, I don't want someone to live with me, but goddamn some human interaction outside of work would be cool. Last night I was on discord with some random people from a Monster Hunter World clan discord server and it was fun, but I was only around for like 3 hours doing stuff with them... now it's 1:17 AM and I'm trying to figure out if I want to play Lance or not. Tbh I had come home to hopefully play with some people again and then I was like "eh" and started farming monsters for accrued knowledge in the game to hopefully trigger some more quests, but... nothing so far and I have like 20 monsters maxed on knowledge so... idk. I'll probably ask Reddit again after I get more knowledge about monsters in the game.

It was actually weird, I hopped into discord voice at first to do some Tempered quests with someone from the discord and it happened to be a girl, and instantly I was like "haha this is a joke right" and then I realized very quickly that it wasn't. And I just had the stupidest reaction, like my hands instantly got sweaty and stuff very quickly like I was nervous, and I was thinking to myself "wtf?" cause there was no reason to be. Rando people on the internet don't deserve my thoughts, they are tools to be used to further my own career in whatever I'm doing at the moment.

I didn't do any stupid shit in the game, I didn't play better or worse, I just played. And that's what I'm most proud of myself for was not being an idiot around a rando girl on the internet. She was cool though. And then some other dudes popped in and we did some questing together. They have a small PC community too, so once I'm done with PS4 I'll most likely run through the game on PC. I hope I get a Nvidia 1060 by then at least, ugh.

welp, back to watching a video on lance.

Thursday, July 11, 2019

A review of my workplace

I was too scared to post this on Indeed so I'll just put it here since I spent time on writing it:

tl;dr: Apply for Microsoft department instead of any other department because anything else is an absolute train wreck in terms of any structure or advancement options, as well as fair pay versus the average in the Tucson area.

I recently decided to review Mural on Indeed.com and GlassDoor because, despite working there for almost 2 years I have not gotten an annual raise but I keep getting responsibilities piled on top of me. I'm okay with this but at the same time they underpay a couple of departments of employees which is very saddening to see, including myself. For the basic IT work departments working with CenturyLink however and getting to work with Office 365 outside of the Microsoft department they have there I would definitely say it's good pay for the work, right now it's $12 an hour and some people might have seen ads for the new position that's opened up on CenturyLink for the Application Technicians.

However, the Application Technicians are being paid more than some of the other departments who are doing far more intense work than the Application Technicians, and the whole of the Microsoft department as well. This is one of my main gripes about this place, and I absolutely hate having to have ANY gripes about this place...

...Because the work culture here is GREAT. Everyone is very supportive of each other, there's no bullying or anything of the sort.There are free lunches for the whole company (either sandwiches or pizza) on Fridays and it's a very relaxed atmosphere, but it is important to have a good work ethic (be on time and keep up with your customers and work in general) or you will get bonked out on your butt so fast.

I absolutely love working here as an employee and I really hope that there is an annual review system put in soon before I get to my next year there, as the average salary of a person doing what I'm doing right now would be getting paid an average of just over $16.50 an hour according to Indeed and LinkedIn.

Management is also banking on distracting people with free food every week and bi-monthly "parties" that just don't come around often enough to be worth it to stick around that workday and when you figure it out, aren't worth it enough to be underpaid. I'd rather be paid more than have free food and small "parties" that are just booze and snacks. They do sometimes have cookouts and stuff as well.

They also implemented a bonus structure recently which quite possibly they expected to take the place of raises, but it's not guaranteed you'll even bonus at all in the CenturyLink department if you're not working on the advanced team, and if you're on the advanced team there still isn't enough work for people not working with large corporate accounts to make the work worth it for the bonuses you're getting unless you happen upon a 30-user migration and they all need Office 365 licenses or something. The Microsoft department does not get bonuses but they make more than enough money to cover what the other departments get in terms of bonuses.

This workplace is a great place to get your feet wet with IT work in a very supportive environment, but if you expect to be fairly compensated for your work if you move up the ladder, look somewhere else, because they don't have a system for annual reviews in place, and it's like pulling a whole mouth of teeth for getting them to "promote" with a raise as well.

If you DID want to still work there, I would highly suggest applying for the Microsoft department as their pay is controlled directly by Microsoft and has a very smooth advancement rate to be done in that department in general and has very clearly defined skills and roles.

Monday, July 1, 2019

Death of a Titan

Well, today my best friend at work and co-worker and leader of my old department that I got moved back to got fired today. I generally know why he got fired but it was his own fault for not getting approval for doing what he was doing. He really poured his heart and soul into the job and he just constantly got shit on for wanting answers to customer scenarios, or trying to help customers in general. 

I'm surprised all of the guy's hair didn't fall out with how much worrying he was doing over shit he had absolutely no control over though. Shit, even I should be freaking out right now with the issues that he was dealing with, cause now effectively I'm going to have to deal with those issues instead...

I guess I'm a higher-up now? I'm almost 30 and it's about time I pursued a better paying position with more responsibility and knowledge to learn, but that man was a treasure trove of IT knowledge I will never possess in a way I need to for this job. I'm hoping to get into a better position, but we'll see I guess. I'm still waiting on my raise/promotion to Senior Team Member for my other department with the pay raise that comes with that so I'm a little like... ehhhhh. 

You guys wanna shovel all this crap on me without paying me more, not gonna happen. And I'm gonna tell them as much tomorrow, since apparently I'll be meeting with the COO and some operations managers and stuff for the company.

Do I have a pair of slacks... no but I have a polo, so that'll have to do. -_- I guess I should start dressing more adequately for the position that I want and/or will be in shortly. Shame, but, eh. Maybe I'll ask Jake for recommendations on pants/shirts. And to think I was going to play PS4 tonight at work, I guess I still could at any rate... now I have to haul my PS4 home on my back. At least I brought my backpack too so it'll be easier to carry home, and that's probably how I'm going to be bringing my stuff from now on since I'll have to walk home...

...at 10 PM at night. Shit I may as well just fucking sleep at work, fml. I'll become the work hobo.