So I got put back onto my old team at work as I mentioned previously after my boss and friend got fired. However I got an employee from the other telecommunications department, which is good. But now, one, I'm acting in a pseudo-team lead role and trainer role since I have to generally train this guy on migrations and basically be available to help him with any migrations that may arise. I wish I was getting paid a lot more than I am right now, cause this is fucking stupid. I even shot myself in the foot, cause my now-direct boss, leader of telco, said that I would be making 18-21 an hour but in reality I had asked for 16 without thinking of the talk we had.
Also, why does all management like to beat around the bush and just fucking talk about flowery shit instead of getting to the point and saying yes or no or whatever needs to be said? It's fucking stupid.
STUUUUUUUUPID.
Anyway, so mister I-wanna-leave-early all the time didn't show up today for work, my "employee", so he missed a lot of shit that I guarantee I'm not going to remember tomorrow, but I'm going to divvy him a migration appointment - wait no I'm not he's going to shadow me... fuck. I forgot I had to train the fucker in migrations. God damn it all.
I'm not even under a huge amount of stress, it's just that I'm handling a little bit of a video game addiction problem at the moment with Monster Hunter World. I'm staying up until like 5 AM some nights (cause I go into work late, shift is 3 to midnight, 11 if we don't punch out for lunch) and I keep just wanting to leave super early because there's nothing to fucking dooooooooooooooooooooo. It's so fucking boring. Luckily when I begin these migrations tomorrow I'll have stuff to do (hopefully, if the company we're contracted with gets back to me with server settings to pull mail from...) but I guess... I dunno. I'm struggling to find shit to do. I reply to emails quickly and efficiently, and I'm sure these migrations will be done in no time, so... I'm really not sure what to do with the rest of the day.... aghhhhhh. I even left early today at 8 after coming in at 1 to come home while it was raining and play MHW.
On a sidenote I fucking love living on my own right now. It's so nice. It's quiet (there's some stomping upstairs sometimes from what I can only guess is a literal fucking elephant) and relaxing and weekends are great, and I can do aaaaaanything I want without anyone judging me in my own home. Gets lonely sometimes but I can't knock holding onto food and stuff.
I'm not depressed or angry or sad, I don't want a pet, I don't want someone to live with me, but goddamn some human interaction outside of work would be cool. Last night I was on discord with some random people from a Monster Hunter World clan discord server and it was fun, but I was only around for like 3 hours doing stuff with them... now it's 1:17 AM and I'm trying to figure out if I want to play Lance or not. Tbh I had come home to hopefully play with some people again and then I was like "eh" and started farming monsters for accrued knowledge in the game to hopefully trigger some more quests, but... nothing so far and I have like 20 monsters maxed on knowledge so... idk. I'll probably ask Reddit again after I get more knowledge about monsters in the game.
It was actually weird, I hopped into discord voice at first to do some Tempered quests with someone from the discord and it happened to be a girl, and instantly I was like "haha this is a joke right" and then I realized very quickly that it wasn't. And I just had the stupidest reaction, like my hands instantly got sweaty and stuff very quickly like I was nervous, and I was thinking to myself "wtf?" cause there was no reason to be. Rando people on the internet don't deserve my thoughts, they are tools to be used to further my own career in whatever I'm doing at the moment.
I didn't do any stupid shit in the game, I didn't play better or worse, I just played. And that's what I'm most proud of myself for was not being an idiot around a rando girl on the internet. She was cool though. And then some other dudes popped in and we did some questing together. They have a small PC community too, so once I'm done with PS4 I'll most likely run through the game on PC. I hope I get a Nvidia 1060 by then at least, ugh.
welp, back to watching a video on lance.
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