Sorry for the long post, the entire situation needs explaining to understand the situation instead of just a "hurrdurr NTs are weird" post.
Names changed for privacy
Ron = 1 member of crew
Jack = another member of crew
Me = Me
So I'm part of a small streaming group on twitch that plays stuff on a singular channel across 5 people. Tonight one of the members was going to be late so I decided to stream Phasmophobia since we had agreed on it earlier. The late member said he was going to be available to play at 9. All is well, he can drop in or whatever. So I start up at the usual stream time (for me 8 EST) and I'm like "bro where is Ron? He said he was gonna play..." on stream. I also threw in how I didn't understand neurotypicals but no one in the audience got it or understood.
So Ron says in discord what I just said about "not understanding people" and he's just in a foul mood the entire time. Apparently this is "badmouthing the stream".
Also, Ron apparently has a large problem with me playing video games in the crew, so I'm not really sure why I was invited to start this group venture. I love these guys to death but fugg me if I can't navigate their brains, especially Ron's. The dude is so confusing.
He says "I thought we were going to start at 9". Remember this point. I say on stream "How does Jack getting home at 9 mean we're gonna start at 9? Please explain." And he did not.
Point from above: So in previous weeks Ron stated that he "didn't want to wait for "us" (meaning me I guess in this case since he freely plays video games with other members and gets along fine with them) someone to be available to play video games, he just wants to play them with select people" and I get that much, but he had someone else from the group playing with him and his friend in a game, so... I thought that was something he knew I had interest in and would also like to play, but apparently not, I guess, despite playing with him and his friend in that game's beta many times previously and obviously having fun in it. So I asked him why he didn't invite me to play with him and his friend and our other group member (when I was basically available 24/7) and he said the above.
So it's very obvious that A. He definitely favors other people in the group, and B. I am an outlier in this case and every single goddamn case ever with this guy.
It happens all the time. Ignored in chat when he's streaming, ignored in game by everyone else, but never to the extent that Ron goes out of his way to. Like what the shit.
Tonight during Phasmophobia I spent 10 minutes trying to get someone to hold a UV light to the door so I could take a picture of the goddamn ghost handprint that was on the door that he specifically said was not there when I said there was a handprint on the door. Also when I died twice guess who was immediately chatty as fuck in those games after I died? Ron.
We play EDF on specific days of the week for co-op days and GUESS WHO'S THE LAST ONE ALWAYS RESSURECTED IF 2+ OF US DIE? THIS GUY. Much less any other talking I might get to do during the stream.
The last time we played EDF I was completely silent and just went to browsing reddit when I died. No point telling em if I'm fuckin' dead if they don't care. I am literally ALWAYS the one flying around and resurrecting them when they die. All the time. Zero thank yous or just begrudging-toned ones. Like really bro you're the one streaming and I'm here saving your ass so people in chat don't gotta fuckin watch you TANK THE FLOOR. I do understand it's hard to get around in EDF sometimes but when you watch 2 of them run past you when you're dead and don't say a word multiple times, like... cmon man. Cmon.
Dude I'm so fucking sick of being disregarded and being "lower on the totem pole" than everyone else in every group I'm ever in. And then in discord instead of pointing the finger at me he tries to make it a "team announcement" to not badmouth the stream on stream. Like bruh no I'll air the dirty laundry because it's YOU who didn't make sense in the first place! I admitted to doing the thing and asked again how that made sense. And then after the stream he STILL tried to make it a team announcement instead of just saying "Setari, please do not do the thing you did and come to me about it instead". Nah man. These people don't know just how sick of this shit I am and I'm tired of KEEPING IT BEHIND CLOSED DOORS. I ain't DOIN THAT SHIT ANYMORE.
It is very obvious in every game we play that Ron dislikes me being there lol. Even when we just play stuff together without anyone else, like we played a 2 person co-op game and it's like... mentally rubbing two pieces of super rough sandpaper together. No conversation, nothing, very forced if it does happen (from Ron's side). But have one of the other people pop in and all of a sudden it's a grand old time for him and the other guy while I struggle to get a word in edgewise sometimes, like I'm treated like a fucking kid... just like everyone else treats me.
I'm fucking 30 for god's sake. Yeah I fucking sound like a 16 year old over mic, fucking deal with it. I'm an adult and on an equal playing field with everyone else, dammit.
Thanks for coming to my crappy TED talk.
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