and your teacher would introduce them like "oh mah gahhhhd it's yoooou how are you!? class this is xxxxxxxxx and he/she works as a [cool job here that relates to the class]". I always wanted to be one of those people who comes in and is able to chat with the teacher as a "fellow adult" and stuff.
can't do that cause I'm mentally 13 and work dead end customer service jobs along with being fat lol. every single one of those people who came in were FIT as fuck dude
fuck my life. Today has just not been a good day for me mentally. I did get paid $50 for helping to fix a computer. Bought a $20 game and I was hoping some of the Hoarders would watch me play in discord/pick it up to play with me but no. Luckily the game has matchmaking so I was able to play games with some randos, it was fun? It was an okay time I guess, not really fun. Basically prop hunt via ghost hunting, it's really neat and actually very polished.
Man I just don't want to be alive anymore, it's been years since I've talked to anyone else IRL besides family members. Literally years I'm not even kidding.
If I would have known when I was younger life was gonna turn out like this I would have just... I dunno. still a wimp for pain so. The only way I'd go out rn is via gunshot but my dad locked his gun cases now so... nope. I'll have to buy my own gun if I wanna do it.
My 30th birthday is coming up and I always said I'd be dead before 30. I legitimately don't know how I'm still here, I eat like shit, I'm not active, I probably have like 12 health problems that I don't know about because I can't visit a doctor to check.
I literally just lost my benefits because I dropped to part time at work too so hahahahahahahahaha
god I hate my life just take me out please every day I wake up and the first thing I think of is "fuck I didn't die in my sleep" just please kill me
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