Well, sitting here listening to Simcopter play some They Are Billions and just chilling sipping some Smirnoff... which is now empty, Smirnoff Screwdriver, and Brisk Tea from a can, now.
Not much I want to get thoughts down on, to be honest. I started a new game review website on WIX and I'm hoping to get my own Domain Name as well soon to link to it.
I am looking forward to my next paycheck to get the electric bill back on track... and also to hopefully save some money. I should probably open another savings account. I'll think about it. I've been trying to focus on putting at least 15 dollars into Ethereum every paycheck every two weeks, so that's like a savings account right? That and I can't easily withdraw the money so that stops me from doing it.
I'm probably going to write myself another letter for one year in the future again. I'm disappointed I didn't receive the last one, but I probably deleted it without paying attention. But I was able to read it on the website, so, that's good, I suppose. Unfortunately I remember everything all too well in that e-mail. The painful memories are stronger than the good memories, unfortunately, and I wish it was reversed.
One thing that has helped me a lot is removing the previous relationship from my mind and only speaking as if I was living on my own. Every time I accidentally slip up saying "my ex" or etc, I chastise myself because I don't really know why I do it. But it's getting easier to phase out my past relationship and just focus on myself in my memories instead, because they don't even deserve a thought. Mean, but that's the only way to get over it.
Recently I was thinking a lot about my last post and about how I don't feel anything, and that's not true I suppose. But it's mostly pity and... amicability, that I feel...? I think? Not quite sure how to describe it. But I do feel things, it's just... very, very dulled down. If I was still working at Circle K I think I probably would have smashed someone in the face by now. That job was very hard on me, mentally. Not even physically. But, I'm losing lots of weight anyway because the scooter I bought for myself for Christmas got a tiny, TINY metal shard in it because some idiot didn't want to pull out onto the street and made me hit the side of the dirt road and then go through it. Ugh. Hoping to get it fixed tomorrow but we'll see I guess, I dunno if Wal-Mart will be open tomorrow. Er, today, I guess.
Welp I gotta go shower, have to help my stepdad pull wire for a Burger King (electrician) tomorrow so, meh. He's buying the patch kit though so I can't complain. So tired after drinking though...
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