Post 19

 1/21/17

9:27 PM

Removed Haley from all messaging services and sent her an email pretty much saying have fun fucking 20 guys. I'm done with being patient and kind to women. I'm going to live for myself, by myself, supporting myself, and have fun by myself. Haley said she would still talk to me but since she got her computer back she barely said 5 words to me (not literally but probably 30 mins - 3 hours between responses. So fuggit. I don't need to talk to her. All I need is food, money, & streams.

I can do this.

I CAN.

Also I wrote a text to my dad saying that I didn't know where else I'd apply to but I'm not worrying about it right now. And I sent this:

Yeah, Idk where else I would apply. Now that I'm by myself I'm well off so I can't complain. I just deleted Haley from all communication, she not really talk to me. Prefer to play WoW and dick around with other guys I guess. Not my problem.

Next text:

But I do want to say I'm sorry you didn't get to see us a lot when we were kids bc of mom. She said a lot of shitty things about you that made us adverse to seeing you even if it wasn't true, and I know it wasn't true now. I know you paid out your ass for child support and to try to be around us and I can't even imagine how you felt. I know it's not my fault but I am sorry for all that stuff, and I just want to let you know I do love you Dad.

You never asked for anything from us, you never threw away our gifts like mom did all the time, our cards we gave you, and so much more stuff. In the meantime mom is asking of everything from us add (and) we can't even comply most of the time. And I want you to know that although it's long overdue, I appreciate everything you ever did for me, Drake and Joel. I hope you know that even though it might not feel like it a lot of times.

I'm super hungry so I'm going to go eat, but I want to write about this more later, after I eat.