I think about this all the time when I'm in the car with my dad, he always drives and I'm like "I could just pull the wheel over and end both of us in a ditch right now".
Every single car ride. Both of our existences are not great IMO. He lives on SSDI (disability) and 20 hours a week working at a shop cleaning up after dudes working on trailers (because they apparently can't clean up after themselves which is the only reason his boss gave him this "job") and I lay about all day working from home in a "support center" 8 hours a day 40 hours a week.
My dad is also deaf and we live basically in the Georgia forests so options around here are pretty limited for him since he wants to stay on SSDI.
I have no IRL friends and my online friends are fake as all fuck to me due to my autism and no reason to live besides waiting for cool video games to come out so I can escape into them for 48 hours every weekend before I have to go back to work.
Right now I'm trying to save up for a macbook to have an environment to study coding away from my main computer because my autism/adhd (primarily inattentive) prevents me from studying at my computer but having to cover bills and rent and buy food for us is hard to save up anything with.
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