I wish I could get hypnotized or take medicine to remove those memories.
But, the essence of it really is, we wouldn't be here without those experiences. Some of the places us men are right now are worse than other men's places, but... it is the sum of our experiences and our choices who make us who we are.
I frequently think about what choices I did badly with my previous ex, what I could have changed or did better. And in a parallel universe, maybe I did make those choices. But we're us here, not in that other universe, so we have to live with the living hell that is our minds, putting us through that over and over again. Would I kill my other universe self to take his place? Honestly, with how happy I've been on my own, no. Companionship is nice but only worrying about myself is so much better, when you get right down to the nitty-gritty of it, really.
And some days are better than others. Like, tonight, I didn't go to sleep because of a dream I had last night. Stupid I know but I just really want to be exhausted and pass out than have another dream like that.
Some days I just want someone to shoot me, other days I'm happy to be alive. It's slowly transitioning into a 99% happy to be alive time, but... it takes time. A long time, depending on how much you were attached to them.
But, the essence of it really is, we wouldn't be here without those experiences. Some of the places us men are right now are worse than other men's places, but... it is the sum of our experiences and our choices who make us who we are.
I frequently think about what choices I did badly with my previous ex, what I could have changed or did better. And in a parallel universe, maybe I did make those choices. But we're us here, not in that other universe, so we have to live with the living hell that is our minds, putting us through that over and over again. Would I kill my other universe self to take his place? Honestly, with how happy I've been on my own, no. Companionship is nice but only worrying about myself is so much better, when you get right down to the nitty-gritty of it, really.
And some days are better than others. Like, tonight, I didn't go to sleep because of a dream I had last night. Stupid I know but I just really want to be exhausted and pass out than have another dream like that.
Some days I just want someone to shoot me, other days I'm happy to be alive. It's slowly transitioning into a 99% happy to be alive time, but... it takes time. A long time, depending on how much you were attached to them.
https://www.reddit.com/r/MGTOW/comments/74yxqk/need_guidance_on_forgetting_my_last_ex_for_good/
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