Gradually my heart has hardened. I'm in a relationship now, and when she cries I sit. I stare. I ask "Are you done yet?" with a completely dry, emotionless voice. And she storms off, only to call me later when she realizes I literally don't care whether we ever make up, and will never be the one to apologize again. I can't summon any sympathy anymore. I feel nothing when they cry, except disdain. I can't help but remember all the times I've cried and instead of comforting me, she made everything about her. When I lost my family, she was only worried about why I wasn't giving her as much attention. I was breaking and she made herself the center of attention again. I remember that, and I'm not sad, or angry. I'm dead. I have no time left to devote to tears.
I thought I was the only one who felt this way toward women crying. In my last relationshit my then-gf would cry over me video gaming with a woman (OLDER women, either with boyfriends or without but I was never, ever interested and I told her as such, MANY times, before and after these damn crying episodes) and we would play TableTop Simulator or hang out in streams, etc whatever and talk with our group of friends on skype while we played, whatever.
Every. Single. Time. I played anything with one of them (it was literally 2 women, that's it. No relation to each other, nothing, just separate people) she would get jealous to the point she'd sit in the room and cry because I was having fun with like 3 other dudes and 1 woman in a video game.
So then I'd have to comfort her for an extensive period of time, away from what I wanted to be doing which was relaxing with my online friends on a day off, and soon I had to cut contact with the women and the rest of my online buds because I ended up keeping to having to cut a deal with her. "I'll just play for an hour with them and then stop immediately at the hour", etc. Led to a lot of dropped games and missing out on a lot of fun and friendships.
Eventually you just build up that barrier around your soul that women crying can't pierce through anymore and you're just like... fuck you, get over it. Eventually I started having to fake sympathy because I just kept thinking "it's the right thing to do... IT'LL BE OVER SOON..." so my days eventually were, at least two hours, of comforting a woman about me playing with friends on my days off.
Of course I learned that myself after she started hanging out with guys online, in Teamspeak, etc, but I never bothered her about it because she was having fun. I was jealous as fuck, (and I can't confirm this cause I worked, so) but I knew she wasn't sexy-ing them up online or whatever while I was at work. But I NEVER cried about it. Sure, it stressed me the fuck out, but I NEVER let it detract from her gameplay experience or anything like that. She KNEW it stressed me out to no end and made me feel jealous but, did she change her behavior like I did for her?
HELL NO. You're an idiot if you think a woman would change her behavior for a man, ever.
Women. Never again. Such a load of fucking bullshit.
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