poast

https://www.reddit.com/r/greentext/comments/94257b/anon_has_a_friend/e3ib9x6/?context=3

I know there's nothing like it. I was with a girl for 6 years, dating + engaged.

We split, obviously. She had severe social anxiety (didn't leave the house for 2 years) and eventually I got her to go get medications after living with me for a year with no job, no paying rent, no paying bills, etc. and then she started fucking around with other guys online. I found out one night when I heard the "hot n heavy" breathing that women do when they're turned on/masturbating/whatever.

Yelled at her for three hours for not even letting ME fuck her (no sex for probably 3+ years. No blowies, nothin) but she'll theoretically jump on any guy's dick that's not me.

Six years of supporting someone who never went to try and fix themselves. I loved her and at the end she threw me and the relationship away like trash. I could just tell by her mannerisms and by how she spoke to me that it was completely thrown out of her head.

In the two years after that (actually 2 years last month) I've thought about it a lot and realized that she was probably banging around on the internet with other guys as well WAY before that shit happened at the end, I was just too blind to see it.

The entire year she lived with me I spiraled downward into a depression and wanted to kill myself. Drank a lot. Every night I would cry because I didn't actually want to kill myself, but the emotional pain was tearing me apart. Hearing her laugh while talking to other people on the internet was TERRIBLE to my psyche. And then the end came about and I was finally at peace and could finally live my life for who deserved it: me and only me.

So yeah. Killing yourself over someone is fucking retarded. You have one life to live and you shouldn't hurt your own life for someone else, period, men or women.