Post 1

1/14/17

~4 days to her leaving

2:10 PM

I am going to keep a journal of all my feelings and stuff leading up to Haley leaving my apartment. I actually meant to do this the other day but I didn't get around to it because...nno actually. I was waiting for Haley to finish her dumb Kara run in WoW with da scrubs but she didn't finish before we got to eat Subway together. But today she said she'll eat with me and watch Netflix! We're going to watch the new Series of Unfortunate events show (the one where my class previously saw the movie in theaters with the hot chick playing Violet that my friend Kyle later denied was hot to safe face & left me high and dry) so I hope it's good.

I'm flipping starving right now though. I really hope she doesn't start another run after this one. I ate a quarter of the sandwich last night cause I was so hungry, unfortunately. But I dunno.

It feels weird knowing you've been replaced by another guy, especially sexually I guess. Though she says she didn't cheat on me or anything when we were together but going 5+ years without sex fucking sucks. Hell I went a whole year without fapping for this woman and it didn't change a thing because she never wanted to give me sex anyway. Like what the fuck.

I don't hate her for it but I dunno, it just sucked. But I'm sure it sucked for her when I wasn't giving her any so I guess I deserved it.

Also I was a fucking dick to her at 19, & 20. I pretty much obliterated her self confidence & self esteem in the first like two years. God I regret this shit & every bad decision I've ever made with her because she is hot as fuck now. But I guess that's what I'll miss out on for being a dumbass.